My Very First Anxiety Attack

I was sitting at work eating Mexican food and something didn’t feel right. It was like I blacked out for a few seconds and couldn’t catch my breath. I sat there gasping for air not realizing what was happening to me. My mouth started to go dry and I found myself having a hard time swallowing. I got up from my desk, went to the bathroom because at this point, I felt like I had indigestion and was on the verge of throwing up. However, nothing came up.

I went back to my desk and I just felt my heart pounding. I looked down at my apple watch and I could see my heart rate increasing. 112 bpm 117 bpm 110 bpm Back and forth it would go. So I started taking deep breaths and I noticed my heart rate settling. However, I still couldn’t shake the out-of-body experience I was experiencing. I just didn’t feel right.

So I shut my computer down and got up to leave work. I made it to my car and I picked up the phone to call my Aunt. I told her I didn’t feel right and that I had wanted to go to Patient First. So I was driving to her house and I felt my heart rate increasing. I looked down at my apple watch and my heart rate was increasing at an alarming rate. The higher it went the more I started to panic, wondering if I was going to make it to her house. Then my phone rang, it was my aunt. I told her I wasn’t feeling to good and something was happening. At this time my hands and feet began to tingle and pulsate, I thought I would never make it to her house.

I was rounding the corner and I picked up the phone and told her to call somebody. I pulled up to her house and 911 was on the phone, I explained to them how I was feeling. They stayed on the line until the ambulance arrived.

That had to be one of the most scariest moments of my life. Right out of the blue, I had an anxiety attack. No warning, non notice. My body at that moment was out of control. Honestly, I haven’t felt right since.

The nurse in the ER asked if I had anything going on in my life that I was stressed about and I had nothing. I just entered my Junior year of college and I am in the process of purchasing a home. Everything I ever wanted is happening, like literally I’m living my best life. So, I’m like no, I’m not stressed.

I have a doctor’s appointment next week to really uncover what’s going on with me. But I wanted to tell my story because when I read about anxiety attacks, it mentioned that people feel like they are alone during an attack, like no one understands. And I want them to know that there are other people out here experiencing anxiety attacks, including myself. You are not alone. I understand exactly what you are going through and one thing I know, is that we will get through this TOGETHER one day at a time!

xOxO

 

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